Updates

January 3, 2006 at 9:51 pm | Posted in Computer & Internet, My Life, School & Friends | 1 Comment

Sorry, after coming back from Taiwan, I’ve neglected this blog. You can read certain updates in my blog Rhapsody of CLF(scroll downwards).

Today school term restarts, I’m doing my final year in my secondary school(high school). This might be the last year I’ll be in this school(perhaps I’ll still continue study in this school for a short term next year?).

This year end(Nov) I’m having a final exam, the ultimate test for Malaysia’s secondary student, the SPM paper, equivalant to O level standard. I’m trying to revise everything from now on, probably self-study or having extra tuition.

Sigh, I had to decrease my online time right now…. I’ll be continue blogging in this blog when I’ve the time and the right topic to talk about.

Going to Taiwan

December 5, 2005 at 10:01 pm | Posted in My Life | 3 Comments

I’ll be away, from 6th Dec ~ 27th Dec, that is 3 weeks. I’ve signed up for youth-exchange-like activity organized by Taiwan embassy. The tour is called ?湾观摩团(dunno how to translate into Eng). I WILL be going by myself, with strangers…. totally different than last year’s holiday in China.

But…. I’m not so satisfy with certain things about this tour.

  • 3 weeks, that’s too long!! I wouldnt complain if this tour starts at the end of Nov or earlier, but when I get back here, I’ve only less than 1 week to settle down everything, especially new school term.
  • I planned to study in Dec, but parents insist I go for the tour this year, so….. I had to agree with them eventhough I’ve tried to reason with them.
  • But anyway, this looks like a cool trip though. 3 weeks over there, I’ll mainly stay in a youth activity centre hosted by China Youth Corps. For 10 days, I’ll be staying in ChienTan Oversea Youth Activity Centre (?潭海外?年活動中心). That youth centre looks cool though.

    I hardly can imagine I’ll be living without Internet for 3 weeks…. no e-mails, no blogs, no MSN, nothing at all.
    This is my schedule while I’m over there.
    Tw trip_1

    I just hope I wont get into trouble by losing important things, which haunted me few months ago.

    I will be arriving at Malaysia on 27 Dec, 10pm. I think I’ll only reach home around 12am. After bath and settle down my stuff, I maybe will online awhile, but I’m pretty sure I’m exhausted from the flight(unless I sleep on the plane), so maybe I’ll take a good rest and came online on the next day.

    I think this will be the last post for this blog before I leave, so I will miss Malaysia very much…. 😦

    P/S: Not sure wheter I can get Internet access over there, though I read few activity centres DO have Internet access, but dunno is there any com for me to use ‘eh?

    Friendster Blog

    November 28, 2005 at 7:25 pm | Posted in Computer & Internet | Leave a comment

    Recently I’ve been blogging on Friendster. Their blogging service had improved alot since I try it in May.

    Symphonia of CLF

    I’ve tried to make the blog title related to all the blogs I owned, so I go for the word “Symphony”.

    That blog is dedicated to my friends, which is the main topic I’ll blog over there.

    P/S: For some reason, I felt more comfortable blogging at Friendster during late nights, most of the blog post I’ve posted are written after 2am in the morning!!

    Share Music: Has It

    November 26, 2005 at 7:49 pm | Posted in Music | 4 Comments

    羽泉 “Has It”

    歌曲:Has It
    歌手:羽泉
    专辑:三??
    ?:文雅曲:羽泉

    天空被雷雨划破
    黑夜有了?
    ?星挣脱了银河
    愿望有寄托
    仙人掌开出花朵
    沙漠就有了颜色
    海在?远处唱歌
    城市有耳朵

    has it?管世界多少诱惑
    我有我选择
    has it与众??
    我有我性格
    has it?管世界多么辽阔
    我有我自我
    生命燃烧这一次
    我有我快?

    ?管世界多么辽阔
    我有我自我
    生命燃烧这一次
    我有我快?
    lala~ lalalalala~
    生命?燃烧一次
    去找寻真的自我
    我有我自由
    我有我快?

    What happen in my holiday

    November 20, 2005 at 11:23 pm | Posted in My Life | Leave a comment

    It’s about 1 month alrdy, since I had my school holiday. After that, I’m almost ‘lost contact’ with my classmates. But luckily, MSN Messenger keeps me in touch with friends. I’ve tried to be more ‘chative’ than before, as I’m willing to start chat with others instead of waiting others msg me.

    Other than that, I’ve been more active in Friendster. I’m hooked to search for schoolmates, especially SYTs. 😛

    During evenings, I play football with friends, though not all the time. It’s good to exercise abit, and to test my boots.

    Well, the emotional event took part last week is still overshadows me, though it’s hard for me to accept that my aunt leaves us just like that. I understand that’s a relief for her, but when I think it nicely, why she couldnt enjoy life more and passed away without any sufferings? Sigh….
    P/S: I’ve to admit, I gets a little emotional when managing photos of the funeral procession. What I see in the photos, is no longer exist, and that makes me very sad. 😦

    But anyway, I’ve been trying to overcome that. I understand everyone has to go when the time has come, no one can stop it or espace from it.

    I had a Geography assignment right now, though it’s still under planning. The research might take few days, and I also need to sort out datas and then present it.

    After that, I’ll be going to Taiwan from 6th Dec untill 27th Dec. Kinda long huh? I scare I cant get use to the situation so fast. School starts at 3rd Jan….

    Tomorrow will have a gathering held by Students Union, it’s good to meet with friends again, after all being with friends I’ll feel better than staying at home all the time. 😉

    Something weird with my Google

    November 18, 2005 at 9:38 pm | Posted in Computer & Internet | Leave a comment

    Take a look at this.

    My Google.com.my homepage shows a weird picture instead of the Google logo.

    I dunno what problem is this, but after restarting my Firefox it’s still like this. :S
    Btw Google.com works just fine.

    Share Music: 开往春天的地?

    November 18, 2005 at 9:29 pm | Posted in Music | Leave a comment

    羽泉 “开往春天的地?”

    歌曲:开往春天的地?
    歌手:羽泉 专辑:开往春天的地?

    曲 张亚东

    这个冬天最?一夜
    我和你都在寻找开往春天的地?
    这里?是我的世界
    我等了一天一夜等开往春天的地?
    我?怕用任何代价
    ?是我害怕自己对付?了牵挂
    我已?等你找你追你用尽所有方法
    找啊找啊找啊
    ?过是爱了?了分了?了?化
    一时冲动的想法

    擦肩而过目光交错
    我?然还在追赶开往春天的地?
    我?怕?任何惩罚
    ?是我害怕有天你?和我说?
    我被风?得冻得醒了张?开了嘴巴
    跑啊跑啊跑啊
    一颗心哭了醒了丢了撕了痛?,(别躲我了)
    海泉:痛??(羽凡:好??)

    P/S: My sis and I like this song last time, but it has be forgotten after so long time didnt listen to it. It’s nice to recall old songs back. 😉

    My sisters’ blog

    November 16, 2005 at 8:09 pm | Posted in Computer & Internet, My Life | Leave a comment

    CLY – “Great Expectations”
    CLH – “A Bush of Daphne”

    I just discovered them today when I check their MSN profiles. Haha, their language is better than me.

    But the point I check their blog is to read their post regarding my aunt.
    Their post are more details than mine.

    CLH blogged.
    CLY blogged.

    This was a flower taken from my aunt’s house by my sis.

    Now the flowers are no longer exist and the garden doesnt look as nice is it use to be when aunt is still around…

    In the memories of my late aunt….

    November 15, 2005 at 11:09 pm | Posted in My Life | Leave a comment

    I think I should blog something about her, for me as a rememberance and preserve this memories in somewhere more ‘private’ I guess.

    Mdm. Cheng Soo Lan (钟素兰 女士)was my father’s eldest sister in the family. She is responsible to take care of lots of things at very young age.
    My grandmother passed away when my father was 7, so my aunt take over my grandmother’s place to take care of my father and their brothers.

    After my grandfather passed away 20 years ago, she’s the eldest in the family. Because of this, my aunt was well-respected by my father’s family.

    Among myself and my sisters, my 2nd sis LH was the closest to my aunt. My parents were busy working that time, so my aunt help them to take care of my sis LH for some time in Penang(father was from Penang). She brought my sis go for shop almost everyday when my sis is still with her.

    Actually 3 of us respected her very well. She also helped other ppl to take care of their child, a nanny.
    I can remember 2 of them, Leng and Siang. Being a kid, I use to play with them.
    I still remember Leng’s house was just beside my aunt’s house, I had to climb up a stairs to get into the house. Leng was 1 years elder than my sis LH if not mistaken.
    Siang was a year younger than me, but he’s a bully and always make me cry(yea I admit it).
    No matter how, we all love to be with my aunt because she’s just like another mother of us.

    That was about 10 years ago when my aunt move to KL with her sons. They live in Selayang, not so far from where I live. We often visit her that time.
    Because my aunt’s sons(consider my cousins, but waaaay elder than myself) wanted my aunt to enjoy life better, so they move to Rawang in a bigger banglow.

    Although the new house at Rawang is far away from my house, but we still visit her sometimes but not so frequent.
    Sadly, my aunt’s husband passed away 3 years ago. Since myself arent so close with him, so….. I didnt feel sad or any feeling that time. My aunt is just calm, this is what I can remember. I’ve forgotten because of what reason we didnt attend the funeral.

    After my sisters left Malaysia to study in China, we seldom visit my aunt then. Anyhow, we still visit her place during Chinese New Year.

    This year, my aunt went to hospital to do medical checkup. She discovered that she had cancer, which part I’m not very sure. My mother helped my aunt to arrange treatments and medications. She undergoes chemotherapy, and became very weak then.

    Months ago, we’ve got the news that the cancer cell had spreaded to other body parts. One of her left finger was amputated because the cancer cell had destroy the finger structure, and also to prevent the cancer cell from spreading elsewhere.
    In the mean time, my mother asked my sisters to message or call my aunt to keep in touch.

    During my sisters’ summer holiday in July, they came back. We had a big family dinner together. That time, she’s still ok but doesnt look so good though.

    During the last few months, aunt was having difficulty in breathing. We suspect that there’s some prob with her lung, although doctor couldnt check anything wrong.

    Last week, she was discharged from hospital. The situation is getting worse…. the doctor predicted she couldnt make it so far….

    I still visit her when she was in hospital, and she changed alot when she discharged back home, is like become another person. Sigh…. it’s so sad that she’d become so thin and no energy.
    I cried at that night, knowing that her time left not much, and my sisters miss her so much.

    Elder sis LY asked me print few photos, and a message for her, while LH sent a letter for her.

    Last Sunday, 13th Nov, my aunt passed away peacefully at 10am. I only able to visit her at night because father’s working. Well….. it’s so sad that see her placed inside the coffin…
    I planned to goto Melaka on Tuesday, but have to cancel it to attend aunt’s funeral.

    FuneralFuneral
    Flowers

    For these past few days I kept visit her house. I’m heart-broken to see someone I respected gone forever. My mother says it’s a relief for her from her suffering.
    That night, I hardly able to sleep. I think I only fall asleep at 4.15am, and then wake up at 6.10am.
    Suprisingly, today I didnt feel tired.

    Around 8.30am, there’s a music band plays the funeral march. Music really has the effect to alter one’s emotion, many visitors broke into tears when listening to the sad music, including myself.
    FuneralFuneral

    I tried to control myself stop crying, but when think about my sisters’ reaction in China, I just felt sad and sorry for them. I went there to pay the last respect on behalf my sisters, so it’s like having ‘extra’ sadness to cope with the situation.

    Aunt’s body were taken to Petaling Jaya Crematorium to be cremated. We follow the bus to the crematorium to pay the last respect.
    You see, I’ve tried to control myself from crying but when think about my sisters, I just couldnt stop it.

    The saddest part of the entire ceremony, was the time my aunt’s coffin are placed into the furnace, seperated from us forever and ever……..
    Cremation
    Cremation

    姑姑,希望您在天之?,能顺利归西方??世界,?佑我们大家。永别了?

    Life & Death

    November 14, 2005 at 2:00 am | Posted in Ideas & Thoughts | 10 Comments

    Chinese said, a person must experience born, old, sick & die(生?病死).
    This ‘formula’ actually applies to most people, but I must say, not everyone can apply on this rule.

    You see, I do agree the first, born 生. If not your mother gave birth of you, you wont be living in this dynamic world. I talk crap, yea. Born is the start of a long journey of life, you start from zero to hero.
    Uppon growing up, we learnt knowledge and know how to think, do things that benefits people.

    The second, old ?. Somehow I disagree with this term. Not everyone can live untill ‘qualified’ as old/senior citizens. Maybe their life didnt make it that far, they couldnt survive untill oldership.
    I talk crap again, sorry.

    The third, sick 病. I’m neutral in this. I believe everyone in this world would get sick in your life time. Even if you’re a person who really take good care of your health, or take care of hygiene, I bet you still will get sick, not now but maybe in past, or in the future.
    But, sickness doesnt always lead to the next stage, death. I roughly guess, 90% of the sickness we had in our entire life wont danger our life. So…. doesnt really shows that sickness are fatal.

    The last stage, death 死. I strongly agree with this, as I agree the first term born. Chinese said, 有始有终, there’s a start, and there’s an end.
    Whoever living in this world, he/she wont be able to escape from the death. Maybe, he/she could have the chance to expand their lifespand, who knows? But anyhow THEY will come for you when the time has come.
    Death is actually a normal part of our life, I quote from someone I read before,

    Death is another great adventure.

    Different beliefs and religions might gave different answer for how the deceased will go on after that, refer to your master/tutor/guru for more info as I’m poor in such information.

    This is just another piece of my mind….

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