January 3, 2006 at 9:51 pm | Posted in Computer & Internet, My Life, School & Friends | 1 Comment

Sorry, after coming back from Taiwan, I’ve neglected this blog. You can read certain updates in my blog Rhapsody of CLF(scroll downwards).

Today school term restarts, I’m doing my final year in my secondary school(high school). This might be the last year I’ll be in this school(perhaps I’ll still continue study in this school for a short term next year?).

This year end(Nov) I’m having a final exam, the ultimate test for Malaysia’s secondary student, the SPM paper, equivalant to O level standard. I’m trying to revise everything from now on, probably self-study or having extra tuition.

Sigh, I had to decrease my online time right now…. I’ll be continue blogging in this blog when I’ve the time and the right topic to talk about.


Going to Taiwan

December 5, 2005 at 10:01 pm | Posted in My Life | 3 Comments

I’ll be away, from 6th Dec ~ 27th Dec, that is 3 weeks. I’ve signed up for youth-exchange-like activity organized by Taiwan embassy. The tour is called ?湾观摩团(dunno how to translate into Eng). I WILL be going by myself, with strangers…. totally different than last year’s holiday in China.

But…. I’m not so satisfy with certain things about this tour.

  • 3 weeks, that’s too long!! I wouldnt complain if this tour starts at the end of Nov or earlier, but when I get back here, I’ve only less than 1 week to settle down everything, especially new school term.
  • I planned to study in Dec, but parents insist I go for the tour this year, so….. I had to agree with them eventhough I’ve tried to reason with them.
  • But anyway, this looks like a cool trip though. 3 weeks over there, I’ll mainly stay in a youth activity centre hosted by China Youth Corps. For 10 days, I’ll be staying in ChienTan Oversea Youth Activity Centre (?潭海外?年活動中心). That youth centre looks cool though.

    I hardly can imagine I’ll be living without Internet for 3 weeks…. no e-mails, no blogs, no MSN, nothing at all.
    This is my schedule while I’m over there.
    Tw trip_1

    I just hope I wont get into trouble by losing important things, which haunted me few months ago.

    I will be arriving at Malaysia on 27 Dec, 10pm. I think I’ll only reach home around 12am. After bath and settle down my stuff, I maybe will online awhile, but I’m pretty sure I’m exhausted from the flight(unless I sleep on the plane), so maybe I’ll take a good rest and came online on the next day.

    I think this will be the last post for this blog before I leave, so I will miss Malaysia very much…. 😦

    P/S: Not sure wheter I can get Internet access over there, though I read few activity centres DO have Internet access, but dunno is there any com for me to use ‘eh?

    What happen in my holiday

    November 20, 2005 at 11:23 pm | Posted in My Life | Leave a comment

    It’s about 1 month alrdy, since I had my school holiday. After that, I’m almost ‘lost contact’ with my classmates. But luckily, MSN Messenger keeps me in touch with friends. I’ve tried to be more ‘chative’ than before, as I’m willing to start chat with others instead of waiting others msg me.

    Other than that, I’ve been more active in Friendster. I’m hooked to search for schoolmates, especially SYTs. 😛

    During evenings, I play football with friends, though not all the time. It’s good to exercise abit, and to test my boots.

    Well, the emotional event took part last week is still overshadows me, though it’s hard for me to accept that my aunt leaves us just like that. I understand that’s a relief for her, but when I think it nicely, why she couldnt enjoy life more and passed away without any sufferings? Sigh….
    P/S: I’ve to admit, I gets a little emotional when managing photos of the funeral procession. What I see in the photos, is no longer exist, and that makes me very sad. 😦

    But anyway, I’ve been trying to overcome that. I understand everyone has to go when the time has come, no one can stop it or espace from it.

    I had a Geography assignment right now, though it’s still under planning. The research might take few days, and I also need to sort out datas and then present it.

    After that, I’ll be going to Taiwan from 6th Dec untill 27th Dec. Kinda long huh? I scare I cant get use to the situation so fast. School starts at 3rd Jan….

    Tomorrow will have a gathering held by Students Union, it’s good to meet with friends again, after all being with friends I’ll feel better than staying at home all the time. 😉

    My sisters’ blog

    November 16, 2005 at 8:09 pm | Posted in Computer & Internet, My Life | Leave a comment

    CLY – “Great Expectations”
    CLH – “A Bush of Daphne”

    I just discovered them today when I check their MSN profiles. Haha, their language is better than me.

    But the point I check their blog is to read their post regarding my aunt.
    Their post are more details than mine.

    CLH blogged.
    CLY blogged.

    This was a flower taken from my aunt’s house by my sis.

    Now the flowers are no longer exist and the garden doesnt look as nice is it use to be when aunt is still around…

    In the memories of my late aunt….

    November 15, 2005 at 11:09 pm | Posted in My Life | Leave a comment

    I think I should blog something about her, for me as a rememberance and preserve this memories in somewhere more ‘private’ I guess.

    Mdm. Cheng Soo Lan (钟素兰 女士)was my father’s eldest sister in the family. She is responsible to take care of lots of things at very young age.
    My grandmother passed away when my father was 7, so my aunt take over my grandmother’s place to take care of my father and their brothers.

    After my grandfather passed away 20 years ago, she’s the eldest in the family. Because of this, my aunt was well-respected by my father’s family.

    Among myself and my sisters, my 2nd sis LH was the closest to my aunt. My parents were busy working that time, so my aunt help them to take care of my sis LH for some time in Penang(father was from Penang). She brought my sis go for shop almost everyday when my sis is still with her.

    Actually 3 of us respected her very well. She also helped other ppl to take care of their child, a nanny.
    I can remember 2 of them, Leng and Siang. Being a kid, I use to play with them.
    I still remember Leng’s house was just beside my aunt’s house, I had to climb up a stairs to get into the house. Leng was 1 years elder than my sis LH if not mistaken.
    Siang was a year younger than me, but he’s a bully and always make me cry(yea I admit it).
    No matter how, we all love to be with my aunt because she’s just like another mother of us.

    That was about 10 years ago when my aunt move to KL with her sons. They live in Selayang, not so far from where I live. We often visit her that time.
    Because my aunt’s sons(consider my cousins, but waaaay elder than myself) wanted my aunt to enjoy life better, so they move to Rawang in a bigger banglow.

    Although the new house at Rawang is far away from my house, but we still visit her sometimes but not so frequent.
    Sadly, my aunt’s husband passed away 3 years ago. Since myself arent so close with him, so….. I didnt feel sad or any feeling that time. My aunt is just calm, this is what I can remember. I’ve forgotten because of what reason we didnt attend the funeral.

    After my sisters left Malaysia to study in China, we seldom visit my aunt then. Anyhow, we still visit her place during Chinese New Year.

    This year, my aunt went to hospital to do medical checkup. She discovered that she had cancer, which part I’m not very sure. My mother helped my aunt to arrange treatments and medications. She undergoes chemotherapy, and became very weak then.

    Months ago, we’ve got the news that the cancer cell had spreaded to other body parts. One of her left finger was amputated because the cancer cell had destroy the finger structure, and also to prevent the cancer cell from spreading elsewhere.
    In the mean time, my mother asked my sisters to message or call my aunt to keep in touch.

    During my sisters’ summer holiday in July, they came back. We had a big family dinner together. That time, she’s still ok but doesnt look so good though.

    During the last few months, aunt was having difficulty in breathing. We suspect that there’s some prob with her lung, although doctor couldnt check anything wrong.

    Last week, she was discharged from hospital. The situation is getting worse…. the doctor predicted she couldnt make it so far….

    I still visit her when she was in hospital, and she changed alot when she discharged back home, is like become another person. Sigh…. it’s so sad that she’d become so thin and no energy.
    I cried at that night, knowing that her time left not much, and my sisters miss her so much.

    Elder sis LY asked me print few photos, and a message for her, while LH sent a letter for her.

    Last Sunday, 13th Nov, my aunt passed away peacefully at 10am. I only able to visit her at night because father’s working. Well….. it’s so sad that see her placed inside the coffin…
    I planned to goto Melaka on Tuesday, but have to cancel it to attend aunt’s funeral.


    For these past few days I kept visit her house. I’m heart-broken to see someone I respected gone forever. My mother says it’s a relief for her from her suffering.
    That night, I hardly able to sleep. I think I only fall asleep at 4.15am, and then wake up at 6.10am.
    Suprisingly, today I didnt feel tired.

    Around 8.30am, there’s a music band plays the funeral march. Music really has the effect to alter one’s emotion, many visitors broke into tears when listening to the sad music, including myself.

    I tried to control myself stop crying, but when think about my sisters’ reaction in China, I just felt sad and sorry for them. I went there to pay the last respect on behalf my sisters, so it’s like having ‘extra’ sadness to cope with the situation.

    Aunt’s body were taken to Petaling Jaya Crematorium to be cremated. We follow the bus to the crematorium to pay the last respect.
    You see, I’ve tried to control myself from crying but when think about my sisters, I just couldnt stop it.

    The saddest part of the entire ceremony, was the time my aunt’s coffin are placed into the furnace, seperated from us forever and ever……..



    November 13, 2005 at 7:33 pm | Posted in My Life | 1 Comment

    My paternal aunt, passed away today at 11am due to cancer.

    Rest in Peace….


    November 9, 2005 at 11:30 pm | Posted in Ideas & Thoughts, My Life | Leave a comment

    Cry, is an expression to relief our sadness, dissapointment, or anger.

    Personally, I hate to cry. Why? The reason can be funny. When I cry I tend to get a serious head-ache.

    I used to be a cry-baby when I was in primary school. Almost everyday, I cry just to fight or argue with my sis. Childish, but that’s what I am at that age.

    When I become more mature, I rarely cry. Even though I’ve attended two relative’s funeral, but I didnt cry. Maybe, is because I’m not so close with them.

    The last time I cry, was the end of last year. I was attending a motivation-type course. One of the climax of the course is to make you realise the importance of parents. I cried, the motivator’s words are really heart-breaking. I try to stop but I just cant, my mind couldnt control my action.

    Yeah… I tried to stop crying immediately, perhaps to act cool huh? But after crying, there’s marks on your face shows you’ve been crying. Red-eye, choking voice, running-nose….

    Few days ago, I went to my relative’s house to visit my paternal aunt, who’re suffering from 3rd stage cancer. I’ve visited her few times when she was in hospital, she’s still ok at that time.

    She’s very very weak and ill, hardly can speaks. Everyone was heart-broken when saw her in this situation. Having difficulty in breathing, hardly can move by herself.

    Because there’s many other relatives(adults) around, so I make my move and read the book I bring along.

    My sisters in China are very worried about her. My mother ask me not to tell them too much, dont want to disturb their studies. I still message them to report the latest situation. Both my siss are very close to my aunt.

    After finishing my books, I pay visit to her room again. She’s pale, and softly ask me go home and rest. I went out from the room, and sit at the living room. I started to think how unfair to let her suffer like this, then started to cry.

    She was the one whom helped my father and my uncle after my grandmother passed away when my father was just 7. My aunt was a very hardworking women.
    She cares for anyone, and she’s generous.

    As what I mentioned above, one of the funeral I attended recent years was my aunt’s husband’s funeral. Because I’m much closer to my aunt, so I have no feeling about the death of my uncle.

    But now…. watching aunt suffer like this is really heart-breaking. It’s so sad, my sis are unlikely to attend her funeral…… but the clock’s ticking and the countdown almost hits zero…..

    Pray hard, pray for her to get well, pray for her to stop suffering, pray for eternal peace….

    Computer Experience

    November 5, 2005 at 11:06 pm | Posted in My Life | 14 Comments

    For those who knew me since my childhood, they probably know most of the time I’m sitting infront of computer. In fact, I’ve been sitting infront computer for hours since I’m primary school, but to be precise, the time I get in touch with computer is when I’m in kindergadren.

    My father bought an MS-DOS based computer back in the early 90’s, cost thousands that time as I recalls. Being a kid, of course I was hooked up with the games. The first few games I played are Prince of Persia, Tetris, Alley Cat, Pac-Man.

    I still remember one day I went to Jusco, there was computer exhibition. I’m hooked on the game DOOM & Minesweeper. As a kid, I dunno how to share the game with others, so I played the game for hours over there untill my family drag me back home.

    In year 98, when I was 9, we bought a Windows 98-based Pentium II. That time, it was a great machine. It has 64MB RAM & 3 GB Harddisk space(pathetic). The game I was playing was Age of Empires I. Heh, still remember I like to use the cheatcode ‘bigdaddy’.

    The computer are loaded with lots of games, ’til 26th April 99, the date many computer-geeks will remember, the CIH virus’ attack. We had to reformat the computer, and starts everything from 0.

    The reformatted computer run quite well, untill a night of June 2002. I was playing WWE Smackdown , and then suddently the computer just went off. I couldnt get into the Windows interface, stuck in the BIOS interface. Oh well, the computer was abandon and we decided to get a new computer after this Pentium II had serve us for 4 years.

    August 2002, my father brought me and sis to the PC Fair to get a new computer. My sis was brilliant, she manage to get bargain a RM 3k computer ’til RM 2k with the additional of more goodies!!
    The computer specs are Pentium 4 2GHz, 256 RAM, 60 GB Harddisk space(compare to the previous 3 GB), Nvdia GeForce 4 MX, CD-RW/DVD combo drive.
    It was a great computer, and I named it Vikings, after the company we bought this com. I’ve been using this computer for about 4 years alrdy.

    I’ve registered broadband Internet connection, Streamyx in year 2003, and computer reformatted in 2004.

    April 2004, the power supply of the computer is dead. Later I upgraded my motherboard and power supply, cost around RM 350.

    Right now I’m still stick with Vikings, though it’s getting out-dated.

    It’s kinda odd you see, since I’m Std.6(12 yrs old), I average sit infront of com for 4 hours and above. Yet, I’m still dont need spectacles to repair my eyesight. My eyes are still good, not affected by the long-time I stare at the radiatious CRT monitor.

    My wishlist for my future computer….

  • More than 3GHz processor
  • More than 1 GB RAM
  • More than 256 MB memory graphic card
  • More than 200 GB Harddisk space
  • At least 19′ LCD/plasma monitor
  • High-end multimedia speaker with sub-woofer.


  • Holiday Plans

    October 30, 2005 at 11:25 pm | Posted in My Life | Leave a comment

    3rd of Nov, I’m going to my friend Hilmi’s house to celebrate Hari Raya, which is a festival that all Muslims in Malaysia celebrate together.

    15~16 Nov, I’m joining a trip to Melaka with Students Union + Librarian. Hmm…. perhaps got chance to meet with a blogger Jason?

    21~25 Nov, got a Geography project not so far away from my house. It’s about research of a land that use to be a lake caused by mining activities.

    7~26 Dec, going to Taiwan for vacation + study.

    That’s what I know for now, maybe I’ll have soem other activities? I’m not sure yet. Time will tells!

    Glory Glory!

    October 26, 2005 at 6:22 pm | Posted in My Life, School & Friends | 1 Comment

    Team Blue

    My first time in a REAL football competition, and the first champion for the game!! 😀

    P/S: The hamper was later “gangbanged” by us “barbarians”, well we’re all happy to have this hamper as our reward. 😀

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